Sunday, March 30, 2014

Things change

They say when a rs starts it starts with 2. 
When the third person comes in things change.

So many shows abt cheating so many shows abt third party. There are even the ones abt threesome. I nv thought it would happened to mine. 

Maybe it's the influence of alcohol, maybe we both find her attractive and acted on it. 

But at the end of the day, she's a catalyst  the spark to our rs. I still love u more than anything. 

If my love has become a burden a habit a responsibility, that just shows how much we have and value each other. 

You told me u feel free, like someone has finally let you go. That's how I feel. 

You can take as long time as u want to
Figure things out. I won't say it hurts but we are matured enough to handle this situation. 

Please rem I'll always be waiting for you.




Monday, March 03, 2014

Life after cruise

It's a slow week after cruise holiday.

My heart and mind is still on board star cruise Virgo.
Everytime I shut my eyes I wish I would open them to see myself in the shower, in it's bed or in the pools or in the gym.

I learn that i shld not place money over friendship. Especially in business😔 just let gf do it.

I learnt that decision that I can make is a god's gift. 

I'm in need for spiritual books. I'm in need for psychical exercise.

My body and mind crave for more
While my soul wants peace serenity and away from this reality.

I'm thankful Everytime I think of giving up god will have his way of telling me not to.
He send me to hospital to regain my will to live.
He send Chris to tell me abt her mother in law slip disc prob to remind me how lucky i am to be alive.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Cruise dairies

The best thing I love about this cruise

No need to think of what to eat 
All her delicious cakes are here
Unlimited
Plenty of entertainment 
A lot of time to rest
Enough time to exercise and have fun
Time to indulge
First time watching topless show
Tour the inside of kitchen galley
Traveling to 2 countries within 4 days 
Bought and enjoyed local delights
Living on moving vehicle 

Sunday, February 09, 2014

看破红尘

每当我迟疑、后悔时,请帮忙提醒我:
我们都是红尘过客,生不带来、死不带去。人生怎么样还是要过。找到知己,找到爱人,还有什么可怨?
工作就把它当作消遣时间的工具。

时间虽然可贵,但也是人生监牢。

好想赶快度过这一生,在死亡来临前学会应付,看透痛苦。

每次想到住医院的情景,就怕得不得了。真的醒了,我不知道接下来该怎么做,也没有什么打算。无名无分,默默度过日子,把重心放在家人,爱人身上。其他的,我无怨无悔。

曾经荣华富贵,如今落魄街头,我得到的领悟:不需要假情假意的欠人人情,不需要被外人用闪耀的光环看自己。我清楚自己是谁,自己确定自己的能力。

我多么希望,我能够做到不需要向任何人交代事情。也希望,人生走到终点时,能够对得起自己。

做人真的好累。

Sunday, February 02, 2014

躲起来的自由

不喜欢到吵死人的地方
跟很多人挤厕所

不喜欢跟全村人站在同一个地点跳。

很笨