人算不如天算。

精心策划的“诡计”，结果还是TMD失败了。

走咯，全部走到光。

我他妈的，做莫酱努力？*骂脏话*

送佛要送上西天嘛！%#^%@#

怎么办？

明年是本命年啊，不是最好就是最糟。心，幽幽。

现在正是暴风雨前的宁静，我只能祈祷相信明天会更好。

Balance

i was lost for awhile. many for a very long while.

these few years after i've join my company.. i realise i'm lost.. the media line really blind you..

3 years ago.

i'm not a person who seeks attention..
i'm a geek actually..
i'm very stingy with money..

省吃俭用 frugile was my last name....

i dont spend money for myself...

i find ways to save money and resources..

and practically do things by myself..
sometimes just simply put a very self driven person..

just today i paused and take a step back...
woah...i've changed alot...

i cant seem to find that person anymore...

mom was saying.. 我逛街拼命找便宜货，你咧找名牌货！
i was like... huh... really meh... that's not true... but in fact it is...
i spend money to make myself look better.. on clothes and accesories that i dont need..
im easily influence by peers making myself stand out from the crowd..

is that really necessary? i asked..
bring back the old girl....
save $$

should i go back?

Internal happiness + finding back my roots

i've lost touch for so long ago... maybe its time?

or should i just try learn the way on my own??

-its like i have nv been so eager about it before-