Balance

i was lost for awhile. many for a very long while.

these few years after i've join my company.. i realise i'm lost.. the media line really blind you..

3 years ago.

i'm not a person who seeks attention..
i'm a geek actually..
i'm very stingy with money..

省吃俭用 frugile was my last name....

i dont spend money for myself...

i find ways to save money and resources..

and practically do things by myself..
sometimes just simply put a very self driven person..

just today i paused and take a step back...
woah...i've changed alot...

i cant seem to find that person anymore...

mom was saying.. 我逛街拼命找便宜货，你咧找名牌货！
i was like... huh... really meh... that's not true... but in fact it is...
i spend money to make myself look better.. on clothes and accesories that i dont need..
im easily influence by peers making myself stand out from the crowd..

is that really necessary? i asked..
bring back the old girl....
save $$