Recycle your brain

i look back in life and saw what I have become.

I used to think that i know it all.

Then I realise it's better to be ignorant.

I used to believe in friends and trust everyone.

Then I got hurt and hide myself.

I used to think that I'm the ugliest person in the world.

Then I grew fat. And instead I look better.

I used to be insecure and looks for company and fun at every corner.

Then I grew older and view things in a different perspective.

Topics discussed grew thinner with strangers.

I used to chat 5-8 ppl on irc. Now it's just me and you.

Over thinking will destroy your brain. It just destroyed mine.

I just wanna bite you

My rotten ex boss

Everytime I talk abt Jackie I'll feel that lump in my throat and my eyes starts to well up with tears.

I dunno what is it that brought these tears.
Did I fail him as a writer? My work is not recognize, i feel invisible in the department.

Name one thing he has does to disappoint you.
His reaction when I ask to stay for a bit longer to make it for the yr end bonus. and him make me leave within a month to make way for his new writer.

His allocation of points were always 2/5 for me out of 5 yrs I've gotten 2, 3, 4,2, 2.

I've handled very bad bosses before, worse office colleagues and politics. I'm actually used to his torments haha.

He is really a bad and selfish person. And I'm tired of growing under a rotten log.
Please let me grow in sunshine soon...

Things will get better.

2nd month

This is my 2nd month with TOGGLE, yet it feels like decades already. Everyday I get N numbers of crisis. People who plays tai chi.. People who throw temper.. People who cc the world.. People who does things "accidentally" to get people in trouble.. I feel that I've save the team from quite a few big crisis.. And I deserve some credit for that.. Bosses are nice to me..

But I'm feel that this job is not cut out for me. I m meant for bigger things!!!!

I've been telling myself just come here learn the ropes and u can go off to be a successful person somewhere else.. But my instinct is telling me to stay.. Somewhere there I smell opportunity..
I need to consistantly remind myself that The job I'm doing is just a training ground.

That's what I've been telling myself in when i was in Iweekly hahaa.. Look where i end up.. Hmm.. Time is running out.. I'm already 25 how the hell am I going to prepare for what is install for me?

Who ask me to choose entertainment lifestyle. Go be engineer or scientist or banker la.. Earn big bucks... :(

Can I pls pls pls meet a brilliant trustworthy investor that can help me make alot of money?


Feel like reading little prince tonight.... Something inspirational.. Time to visit the library soon!