Monday, April 08, 2013
Thursday, April 04, 2013
2nd month
This is my 2nd month with TOGGLE, yet it feels like decades already. Everyday I get N numbers of crisis. People who plays tai chi.. People who throw temper.. People who cc the world.. People who does things "accidentally" to get people in trouble.. I feel that I've save the team from quite a few big crisis.. And I deserve some credit for that.. Bosses are nice to me..
But I'm feel that this job is not cut out for me. I m meant for bigger things!!!!
I've been telling myself just come here learn the ropes and u can go off to be a successful person somewhere else.. But my instinct is telling me to stay.. Somewhere there I smell opportunity..
I need to consistantly remind myself that The job I'm doing is just a training ground.
That's what I've been telling myself in when i was in Iweekly hahaa.. Look where i end up.. Hmm.. Time is running out.. I'm already 25 how the hell am I going to prepare for what is install for me?
Who ask me to choose entertainment lifestyle. Go be engineer or scientist or banker la.. Earn big bucks... :(
Can I pls pls pls meet a brilliant trustworthy investor that can help me make alot of money?
Feel like reading little prince tonight.... Something inspirational.. Time to visit the library soon!
But I'm feel that this job is not cut out for me. I m meant for bigger things!!!!
I've been telling myself just come here learn the ropes and u can go off to be a successful person somewhere else.. But my instinct is telling me to stay.. Somewhere there I smell opportunity..
I need to consistantly remind myself that The job I'm doing is just a training ground.
That's what I've been telling myself in when i was in Iweekly hahaa.. Look where i end up.. Hmm.. Time is running out.. I'm already 25 how the hell am I going to prepare for what is install for me?
Who ask me to choose entertainment lifestyle. Go be engineer or scientist or banker la.. Earn big bucks... :(
Can I pls pls pls meet a brilliant trustworthy investor that can help me make alot of money?
Feel like reading little prince tonight.... Something inspirational.. Time to visit the library soon!
Friday, March 22, 2013
With love from friends
I was lost.
I dug through pain memories, empty dreams, disillusioned scenes to find a life I'm looking for.
I misled myself into thinking happiness in life is where one party all night long surrounded with friends feeling high and dead drunk.
I think that to have girls wanting to spend the night with you is flattering and successful.
I feel that life shld be more than just spending it with love ones.
I shld do what I like and be what I want to be.
How wildful is that?
I spend the week putting myself out there. Doing things that I tot would make me happy. Drinking alcohol and partying all night. But after the alcohol effect was gone everything all back in place. I'm still lonely and upset.
Lynette/Marc cherry said: we always forget, that hole in the heart is already filled.
I have forgotten how happy I was before this tide hit me. I was strong healthy and filled with love from my family and friends.
Friends that know me. Friends that I have known for more than 10 yrs. friends that truly care. You can't fake a relationship like that. You can't start a new relationship with someone and expect them to know you. It takes time to build up the trust and understanding. Friends that click and friends that truly know what you need.
We may have our different directions in life but they have accepted who I am. They don't judge and they value who you are.
These are friends that will last. I'm really thankful that they came along tonight.
I dug through pain memories, empty dreams, disillusioned scenes to find a life I'm looking for.
I misled myself into thinking happiness in life is where one party all night long surrounded with friends feeling high and dead drunk.
I think that to have girls wanting to spend the night with you is flattering and successful.
I feel that life shld be more than just spending it with love ones.
I shld do what I like and be what I want to be.
How wildful is that?
I spend the week putting myself out there. Doing things that I tot would make me happy. Drinking alcohol and partying all night. But after the alcohol effect was gone everything all back in place. I'm still lonely and upset.
Lynette/Marc cherry said: we always forget, that hole in the heart is already filled.
I have forgotten how happy I was before this tide hit me. I was strong healthy and filled with love from my family and friends.
Friends that know me. Friends that I have known for more than 10 yrs. friends that truly care. You can't fake a relationship like that. You can't start a new relationship with someone and expect them to know you. It takes time to build up the trust and understanding. Friends that click and friends that truly know what you need.
We may have our different directions in life but they have accepted who I am. They don't judge and they value who you are.
These are friends that will last. I'm really thankful that they came along tonight.
Tuesday, March 05, 2013
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Helpless
When u can't do anything about the current situation.
When you desperately wants to go back to your old routine.
When you just want to do what your heart and brain tells you to.
But the hurdle is there. The freaking caution sign is there. Consequences that needs careful consideration. Or else all the effort will go into waste.
It's just not shiok enough when you have to be wearing the caution tag everywhere you go!
Please heal quickly please... I need to move on already!!!!
When you desperately wants to go back to your old routine.
When you just want to do what your heart and brain tells you to.
But the hurdle is there. The freaking caution sign is there. Consequences that needs careful consideration. Or else all the effort will go into waste.
It's just not shiok enough when you have to be wearing the caution tag everywhere you go!
Please heal quickly please... I need to move on already!!!!
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