Sickening

Everytime when I'm just about to be ill, I can feel it. I've gotten it so many times that I can tell what temperature I'm having.

I dread it everytime I have a fever, i get this never ending self talk, and events replaying in ur mind but you can't do anything else but to go through ur entire life again. I see myself doing things that I regret.. Not saying things I shld have.. Self pity starts all over again.. It is sickening to feel that way.. And u get angry easily.. U get irrited I don't wan to talk but ur mind is very noisy.. Ur body is aching u can't move properly.. U slur when u talk.. All the symptoms some tiny micro organism is doing to my body..

Likw what lynette just say.. Here I am at the cross road.. I realized I am at the cross road once again.. I looked at the nurses in the clinic they fight w some patient becos some medicinal claim was rejected.. I watched the drama for more than an hr they put me there on hold.. This is the kind of shit I have to go through w customer.. This is the kind of shit my baby is gg to go thru... I hope she'll do well get a taste of customer relation.. Maybe we can strike that off the list of occupation we want to do haha just like my azabu sabo..
I'm tired of this company alr.. I'm tired of the chain I'm locked to and the boss I've answered to for the past yr.. They re really nice but becos everyone ard me is sending these negative signals abt them..
I wan to quit becos everyday my mind drift to playing and staying home w my family.. I want a long week home doing just what I want to.. Clean up my life... Clear up the spider web toss away things that does matter.. And really think abt what is impt..

What shld I do :( I wan a project basis job.. Where can I find that?

Hush hush x2

I can see the rainbow
I can see the sky
Where the little blue bird
Just flew by

The rain just stopped
The drama just ended
I turn around to catch
Little baby's tears fallen from her cheeks

Grow up little ones
Grow big strong bones
So that one day you will soar
Just like the eagle you will be..

Wouldnt it be nice if the world is perfect?
Wouldnt it be nice if your gf knows what u really meant?
Wouldn't it be nice if things goes your way?

Only in cabluery?

Winter summer spring autumn
Cold n hot

Where is the girl that you forgot?

My destiny

I feel it...
It's coming..
The passion to find what I'm really meant for.
It's becoming clearer each day... It's getting closer n closer but I've no idea what I will find..
Like my new look new lifestyle new life.. Everything happen for a reason this incident I believe would be an end to my drunken lifestyle tt I've lived for the pass 4 yrs..
It's a new start.. I'm all set to change my lifestyle again.. I'm glad people I loved and treasure are still by my side walk down this road with me.

Maybe for me to get back into temple was one step closer to finding my destiny..
But I really really really dont like the culture it's like a herd mentality.. But who am I to complain so much.. I'm just the same as everyone else in front of god..
I will miss my "flamboyant" days but I'm gonna be good from now.
Bad girl gone good haha rhienna anneihr