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选这条路的我们，必定孤独。

我们选错吗？

恩人

郭靖凌老师

6年前，毕业后彷徨无助，在寻找事业目标方向，踏入社会前，与郭老师见面。当时找他吃饭，前提请他替我写张推荐信，还记得是在j8的Thai express.

他赐我一句：

“人生中发生的事，是为未来做最好的准备”

今天再重逢，在学院遇见随口说吃饭，其实也是想请他指点迷津。迷茫了一年半载，终于有了答案。

听见自己的学生和他一样拿了long service award，他欣慰呵呵笑。

他也像当年一样滔滔不绝说了很多。感觉没变。说着说着，字字一针见血，像是把我憋了几个月的苦都分析出答案。我问的问题他都能开解我。仿佛把我心中的瓶颈，掀开瓶盖，霉气晦气喷出来。即使眼泪和当时一样一直不停地在眼里打转，我还是摆出一本正经样跟他猛点头，像足刚当年的学生。

他没教过我，可却是我毕业后最好的老师。很庆幸他教给我的都是课堂上，不可能碰到的人生大道理。

两杯天与地绿茶6.20 Burger King做了1小时，还真的值回本。

这次他赐我，大意跟前一个一样：“ 做凡事都有意义。”

他劝我耐心，把自己当作学习中的画家，吸取经验，任何经验都好，这样有一天就能打造自己的一种风格，

我很感激，很感动，也很感谢。这种机遇真的是可遇不可求。

Stephen Sheppard 

大师班老师，美国新闻导播，资深传媒人。

他看中我，可能我的发型亮眼容易记。上课第一个记得的就是我的名Jing。之后偷瞄了他的笔记，在我名字旁写了blonde，我偷笑。我的确是班上唯一染金发的学生。

他把我归入杂队。对我说：im sure jing's flexible she can handle anything.

队伍里每个人的目的不同，背景更乱。比DAS 更乱。大家都很有热忱学习。可是拍完我要拍的东西后，剪出来的东西却失去先前打算做的主题。很懊恼，怎么大家能够接受这种做法。我是不是应该学着去接受？

总之，我私下找他聊我的看法，他鼓励我，去新闻组深一层探讨实事，敢于出众，下令我下星期一找实事的导播聊聊。临走前，熊抱我好一下。感觉真的很棒。像是电影中的老爸一样，只不过他很高像只巨熊。

一个不认识我的人，相信我能够在实事组工作，我怎么不相信我自己呢？

惭愧，同时感激，感动。

某年长者专家在接受访问后，得知我是媒体人，对我说：I've always supported the media, because media is such a powerful medium. You guys are powerful.

我知道自己写的东西，制作的作品都很可能影响一个人的思想。我觉得我要净化每个人是不可能的。但是我能把我认为对的传下去。其中就是华人思想，哲学，文化。

打造属于新加坡自己的节目，然国外人抄袭我们。

忽然好热血哦。

Cheating agenda

I can't say I hate him for what he does. I'm disappointed because he is going through something that I've gone through before but much worse. With more stakes at hand.

I know why I did it before and I have accepted it as my past and now I don't do it because there's no need for it.

I'm disappointed that he doesn't do what he preach. I'm disappointed that he doesn't see a potential husband in my friend.

I'm sad because I can't help both of them. I want to tell him what he did is absolutely temp pleasure, he is playing with his potential future. 

I want to tell him give the guy a second chance, you might end up with a more loving husband than anyone else.. Some ppl just need to grow up to know that. But I'm afraid of betrayal again.

I truly want them to be happy and loving together but it is sad when facing w a breakup. 

我只希望爱我和我爱的人都能幸福快乐。

老子的智慧

心要静

道德经

才能进

法国作家巴尔扎克说：自满、自高自大和轻信是人生的三大暗礁。

back on crossroad once again

SO crazyyyy!!!!
i have viewers from all over the world!

Pageviews by Countries Entry Pageviews Singapore 1384 United States 51 Germany 24 China 22 Russia 15 Israel 12 Netherlands 12 France 7 Ukraine 7 Latvia 6

SOoooo awesome! can i just die now?

was feeling rather down today when i look at jobstreet and realised there's absolutely NOTHING i wanna do... i cant picture myself doing anything... working for other ppl.. or even being my own boss..

it's like a blackout period for me... will this ever end? or will i keep wondering what's the best job for me?

i look back at my old entries which always makes me smile.. it's like talking to your younger self and wishing you could reply and say " look at me now, i've come this far".

Then where shld I go next? 

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