The more it draws to a close the more stress I get.

Insomnia. I'll get over it. Needa run.

Too much chicken too much crap. Get a life girl. Eat clean train hard lose weight!

下了一整晚的雨终于停了。
2013年第一次熬夜，忙着整理照片。手上只有06-13年的照,之前的完全不了了之。原来我中学没拍过什么照。可能太丑了，相机会坏掉吧。可能是发育时期，荷尔蒙失调把照片全删了。
少了照片，心里难免失落，好像有一部分的人生完全失去踪影。
很黑暗，很痛苦的记忆。开始了解人生，却遭现实逼上绝路的时候。
少了那段记忆，我的人生拼凑起来还算幸福。嗯，照片中的我们永远那么开心。难道说明照片里有很多假象？
也未必。人生嘛，看你怎么对待咯，真真假假，何必那么执着？
忽然有种念头，其实照片不是不小心弄不见，可能命中注定要我忘记的？

20 RESOLUTION 13

1) reach 55kg by next yr
2) learn to use design program
3) achieve a fitness award/cert
4) go for cooking/photography class
5) start investing on stock market/unit trust
6) bring Cashy for a run every weekend

2012 look back n reflect

Last yr 2012 was a terrible yr. except all the traveling that I've did.. First time to Cambodia n Japan. Two totally different world. Just opened my eyes to reality.

I've managed to pass my exam well pulled my agg of 2.7 back to 3.4 totally worth studying.

I've managed to see through some ppl' motive and see them for who they really are. Sometimes I managed to dodge their flying arrow, sometimes people protected me but got hit, sometimes I got hit really bad and had to lick my own wounds climb back up again.
I've learn that many times we get affected by what ppl say, but most of the times it's just how the self interpret it. Lessons of self perception prep up every now and then to remind me over n over again.

I've learn to be strong, to garner food as friend, exercise as my trainer to build my mind and body. I want to be strong and fit. Fitter than an average person.

I've gotten a new career something that boost my confidence once more. I've learn that even in the darkest period of time, encouragement and support are really impt for me to go on.

I've seen myself in the darkness. Haha transferring all my energy to train myself. I've seen how I dealt with depression and stress and its very useful. I'm glad I have found tumblr, it's motivation n inspiring statement keep me going every day.

My love for one piece is what kept me up until now 1145pm 31/12/12.

ive pledged to live my life with her the best gf in the world.

Finally I've learn to do things on my own. Get the ball rolling n not give upside easily!

Bring it all back

I found myself again. The old me. The me without this large label of Iweekly writer on my head.

I'm so glad I got rid of it. I can finally live my life normally with a normal job that do paper work.. I can finally be the old me again..

原来，这几年我都活在虚幻的世界。做些我以为记者应该做的事。套着虚荣的假象活着。
卸下繁重的包袱，才发现这个职位根本不适合我。我根本受不起。我喜欢朴素简单的生活。荣华富贵对我来说太遥远了，以前贪享福，贪华丽，贪隆重，贪名誉，简直坏透了。现在的我才像人。勤奋点工作，不去计较小事，开心快乐的活着，才是我。

工作有着落，人生又重新有了目标。人生旅途大冒险还等着我呢！