should i go back?

Internal happiness + finding back my roots

i've lost touch for so long ago... maybe its time?

or should i just try learn the way on my own??

-its like i have nv been so eager about it before-

我可以随便写，随便交，随便过我的生活吗？

每天想着要进步，却没有突破的感觉，真的要命哟~

刚刚买了两支笔。一支很贵，一直很美，如果贵的笔可以写出很流利很厉害的文字，我就拿去公司写硬性新闻；很美的笔，就写软性新闻，很轻松很漫画的那种。
这样写的人也比较轻松，不是吗？

今天7月初一，小心一点比较好。听说厉鬼很凶。:\

work stress is getting into me....

new jobscope.. old environment... old colleague.. but new expectation... and my chinese writing is sooooo fucking lousy... bet i'm the worse writer in Singapore.. Thanks..

acting more unusual lately... i can sense tat something is inbalance... i'm trying so hard to maintain that focus... realising that i'm trying very very hard to relax and calm down...

If there's something to do at least my sense of useless-ness is still not so bad....

Exact description of my stress? -it affects the body as well..

-stuffiness on the chest.. cant breathe properly..
-heart thumping so hard that i can feel my body rock front and back..
-the-race-in-the-heart feeling when work comes into mind..
-body muscle seems to deteriorate and die down everytime i think about work..

on top of that i'm making everything a problem.. it's like i'm dwelling on all the mistakes that i make.. i'm trying so hard to think before i make every move... but it ends up the same.. with a walk-away gf, a wrong comment, a blacked face...

breathe in breathe out. *camomile tea* things will get better.

Blogging for the sake of blogging

I've been slacking off this blog!!





Alright here goes.. nothing...





My mom's gg for eye operation soon. My grandma's health is getting better (good!) but her memory is fading away.. so we have to repeat everything every day..every time she ask..





Some murder case traumatised me for the past 24 hr.. and i'm recovering from it. Hopefully next time when i'm 30 plus... i have a beautiful home to live in and happy family with my parents and a loving gf of cos.. and a dog, with a purr.. a fish with a smile... and a hamster with a grin..





Going for tripss soon.. but sch's starting.. trying to balance time as usual... so many things i wanna do.. so little time..


i've decided not to stop learning. so after my degree. i will take on some other courses to enrich my life. such as MUAY THAI (mm), ANGER MANAGEMENT, Riki, Korean?, baking classes?





Sooner or later i'll be doing up a blog on food.. written by me and photog by sticky..





3 more years i'll be 26... 6 more yrs i'll b 29... OMG......





WISH EVERYDAY IM SHUFFLING.....





oh one more thing.. I'm STILL FUCKING overweight. thanks.

can i tell you a secret?

even though i'm working in a chinese magazine.

i speak english to the rest of my colleague, except my boss hahaha.

sometimes they speak to me in chinese, i reply in english. ok most of the time.

and we have been communicating like this for 2 years now... hahaha

no one notice this.. they just speak normally as they do...

lol... only those that cant speak to me in english i will definitely speak to them in chinese.. like those older ppl.. i wonder why.. and i dint assign this...it just come naturally..