work stress is getting into me....

new jobscope.. old environment... old colleague.. but new expectation... and my chinese writing is sooooo fucking lousy... bet i'm the worse writer in Singapore.. Thanks..

acting more unusual lately... i can sense tat something is inbalance... i'm trying so hard to maintain that focus... realising that i'm trying very very hard to relax and calm down...

If there's something to do at least my sense of useless-ness is still not so bad....

Exact description of my stress? -it affects the body as well..

-stuffiness on the chest.. cant breathe properly..
-heart thumping so hard that i can feel my body rock front and back..
-the-race-in-the-heart feeling when work comes into mind..
-body muscle seems to deteriorate and die down everytime i think about work..

on top of that i'm making everything a problem.. it's like i'm dwelling on all the mistakes that i make.. i'm trying so hard to think before i make every move... but it ends up the same.. with a walk-away gf, a wrong comment, a blacked face...

breathe in breathe out. *camomile tea* things will get better.