Panic attack

Panic attack 1

从乐浪岛回来后，觉得对自己好像多了一份了解。

原来我那么爱叫。

叫得令人厌烦。

叫得鱼儿都跑掉。

叫得鲨鱼都找我。

6只鲨鱼围绕着你游的时候真的吓死我。

原来吓的半死是这么一回事。

吓的好像脊椎被人乱拉乱扯，手脚不停地挣扎、再挣扎。

好吓人。

可是那些鲨鱼好像很自在地在游，东瞧瞧、西看看，好像根本不在觅食。

什么大白鲨、什么食人鱼，它们一点都不像！

像她家里的小狗。顽皮。要是我再回去，可能会多加一句“有一点可爱”。


Panic attack 2

公司来了位不速之客，TMD。

气他不接受我好意地请他离开。

竟然还想继续和我吵。

在我们的公司跟我吵。

又不是没有给他阶梯下台。

是他嫌窄不肯下。

哪有人到别人的公司不付钱给你免费看杂志的？！

而且又不是一两次，每2个星期来一次，看的还是FHM。

想到就想吐。脱鞋翘脚，你以为是你家吗？CB!!!!

*消气*

Diane 很感激我，哈哈，我帮她赶走了色伯伯。

奇怪，怎么满脑子内疚？

可能对他的态度不是很好。

最后他是被我骂着离开。我又发现一件我的新鲜事。

我不怕做我认为对的事，只是怕我做了被人骂错。

对自己太没信心了。

突然好想好想

今天是国庆假日。大家都休假赖在家。楼下的节日庆祝会很吵打扰我的思绪。。

每次每年每个今天都要听到一个不会唱歌的老auntie在唱阿哥哥，自我陶醉。TMD.
很讨人厌！

今天本来想做功课，又有冲动上网废时。天啊！为什么我那么无奈！？

想搬到国外，和她一起。

没有别人就只有我和她坐在我们的小屋外，喝着咖啡/果汁看夕阳。肚子饿了就到后花园采水果吃。

还有一只爱跳爱闹的狗狗在门外乱跳。然后家门前放招牌

“景之家”

卖：小黄瓜、辣椒、包菜、玉米和一大堆草莓！

内有住宿，一天$50，帮忙做家务打2折。

我们每天就过着自顾自足的生活，不好吗？为什么要“卖身”换来那么多物质上我们其实都不需要的东西？

新加坡人平均花2/3人生工作。1/3 我们在干嘛？或许是时候该想想未来怎么实现这梦想了吧。。

原来我是老人派。。。

Storm is coming

Even without breathing i know it is near
it hurts me to see my life is slowing breaking apart.. maybe that birthday i had was the last time we're gonna be so happy this yr..

My dad is getting out of job..he and my mom are looking for jobs every now and then.. flipping through the newspaper searching for the next suitable metal bowl..

My sister and brother are growing up so fast that i couldnt keep track of them.. i had myself to blame for not being there when they're facing their most important exams.. i wasnt there to guide them.. after my trip from china.. they seem completely another person.. my brother would hit me when he's angry.. which brother do that?? i never speak to him since.. my sister found a rich boyfriend and is getting out of hands.. every night i had to quarrel with her over her long time usage of *new laptop.. fucked up now i'm stuck outside my room just because i lecture her for using her computer when i want to sleep.. fuck.. if it wasnt my mom getting upset over her using the com i wont even care if she use the com till next morning.. i dun wan to care about her already.. she used to be such a perfect student with great grades.. after i came back from china i realised she failed 4 subjects miserably..ended up in a fucked up course that we finally get her in after heading to 3 polytechnics in a day which turned her down respectively..

i'm glad i dint get into uni..and i still have my gf with me.. maybe this is the lucky part.. i need this job.. and i'm gg to sch soon..
now i'm up working my head off for KBOX..
no you're not the only one with finacial difficulties now... everyone is..

so my beloved family let's start saving up and forget about the quarrelling.. why is no one listening?

Final Details

ok people birthday will be @ my place on 2nd May dinner buffet.. pls wear either white or purple..

I have to do this as my SPABies have alot of problem deciding what to buy..
Present wishlist:
1) Sling Bag A4 size good enough..
2) Inspirational/ Detective book Cannot be too lousy ok?
3) Portable Hard drive of any size
4) Something outoftheordinary
5) tee shirt that says i'm cool or cute...

that's about it... Jayvern.. dun worry.. you can get my present after everyone gave me la.. wont clash.. haha...dun need expensive de la.. 6 carat can le.. haha..*kidding..

21st Birthday coming

Oops.. you mean you dint know?

Gosh.. why am i sounding more and more like an american bitch? Guess hollywood buzzz does have an impact on me.. I'm sooo in love with taylor swift~~
But she look like a wierd doll.. talented little girl with a fabulous voice..

Got a cd of her from our music guy at work... was over the top when i finally get to listen to her songs.. She sound like avril..alot..

now that avril's married and all that and leona lewis is a fairytale story.. i can only have taylor swift to drift to..

Alright back to 21st birthday what should i do.
I'm considering:
-Holding @K Box yet to find out the price..
-catering to home(too boring)
-Snow city birthday parties which includes;
Snowy Cool Fun Party- 1hr of snow play + 1hr of party- Inclusive of jackets & boots- Min 20 pax- $35/pax- 1hr use of party room- Inclusive use of sound system- Inclusive of Party Host- Face painting for kids- Door gifts for kids- Buffet reception - No outside food
http://www.snowcity.com.sg/birthday_snowy.php

and that's practically all i've in mind... sadly

let me know how you're celebrating your 21st and maybe we could really use thouse help here..

Birthday wishlist:
my birthday always happen during the exams and when everyone's broke.
so this yr even though it's supposed to be a special yr for us dragons, i would like to propose an idea which is easier for you to choose what to buy..

0-what do i remind you of
you can buy anything that's related to that including softtoys but dont buy furry ones my nose cant take it, same goes to my mom)

1-any book(inspirational will be good haha)

2-a useable pen + a piece of tissue + spongebob/flag erasers wrapped nicely

3-a good laugh

thats all.. haha easy la.. cheap cheap..