Yes i'm still unempolyed and slacking my life away.. i just spent 50 over (left ard 30 for the rest of the month?) on one night's clubbing at DXO and in which 10 is for me, 20 is for Jayv and 20 for Weipeng.. Ahh wad to do... They're my loved ones too..
make myself go crazy over what i should do in future? open a shop? sell things? that's wad everyone's doing right now.. and you know me... i DONT like to do what ppl do... i wish i can be more normal...
I went back to where PCSS was previously.. missed it so much.. every tree every branch, every path every stairs, that's where my school life was.. I feel so nostalgic..seriously.. that was where a very impt part of my life took place.. in that school..
The school has closed down.. all i can do was watch it from the outside.. I see the trees are falling.. there's a desk and a few broken chair at the foyer.. the shutters were down.. some window panes are still left open.. i could glance through them and peek into the place where we once had our Home Economics.. my favourite class.. i loved to cook and eat my end products at recess.. save some money huh... the familiar field that we ran during TAF club training.. and the exercise station and band practice area.. pieces of memories here and there.. like a jigsaw throwing me back into history.. the ever so cozy benches outside the teacher's room.. (i couldnt get to see them but the place always floods my mind when i think about PCSS) all the teachers who taught me Miss Neo Mr Phoon Miss Lim Mr Ng Miss See Mdm Tan Mr PE (tan?lim?) teacher Mr Geography teacher who's gg bald.. and our favourite libarian who passed away in our last yr in PCSS.. my funky classmates , my favourite band members, my crushes, my cliques... these are the 4 yrs that i feel really grown into someone useful...
i guess everytime i leave a sch, memories of them flow back to me rapidly.. and i'm still holding on to them..
Now that 4 yrs had passed and i'm graduatiing soon from another insituiton.. i feel that.. i'm actually afraid to leave school.. i feel helpless out there.. sch's a place where u can make mistakes and not get fired.. it's a place where Learners are free to grow and mature.. our goal are the same to graduate... not so much of backstabbing free loader and u always see that BULLIES always get punished.. but in society no... it's like darker and deeper water.. and thousand of ppl are swimming in different directions... u have no one to follow but urself.. to cross the busy road or to continue to stay onshore?
I'm still muggled.. can we go back to the old peicai again?
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