Some questions left unasked, some answers left unsaid

Some times i wonder if all this were real? Like Matrix.. Wadever we thought it was for real.. but in actual fact, it's wad our mind make us believe that it was for real.. Y should the world be round? Because my teacher taught me... Wad is reality? Must the spoon be straight and solid all the time? Probably.. y because metal are solid and solid do not change it's shape.. this is wad we all know but wad if all this is juz the mind's controlling our thinking.. maybe all in all we are just creatures living in the womb of a certain endangered plants and being monitored by machines..

I like Matrix..

Nowadays i keep wondering wad i shld put up here.. My life diary ? My love story? Or just a place of shout out where ppl would just come and see this idiot is screaming her head off in front of the screen abt unhappy stuff that happened in her life?

Depends on the person's feeling ba i guess.. Been wondering about alot of things.. hahas.. i would wanna ask my CHS friends y they dint ask me abt questions like why are u a lesbian? y u like girls? you know wad? actually the only person who asked me his awkward question is li fang.. i dunno whether if it's all planned or wad.. (which i find it very interesting..) before i even become one of Qing long bang's member, she was the one asking me to join them.. hahas.. quite a wierd way of asking me to tou something qi something.. hahas..

anw, she asked to borrow my laptop to correct something on her homework.. after which when we reached the pond bench, the rest of QLB suddenly all disappeared.. Den things start to get really awkward.. She ask me erm do i have a boyfriend.. den i say no.. oh ya that time i wasn't attached.. (it was a year ago) I said no.. den she tell me that there are rumours of me being a lesbian.. so she wanna ask me if i am one.. haaas. It's very awkward and i can practically feel the blush on my face la.. den i ask her y she wanna noe.. She said she wanna hear it from me and she wanna noe more abt lesbians.. cos none of her friends are like that and i'm the 1st she met.. I really dunno wad to say so i just beat around the bush asking her wad she wanna noe and stuff..

I did told wei zhen abt my stuff before but i think i scared her off too much ba.. hahas it wasnt a pleasant teenhood for me.. but ya.. I'm glad things turn out this way..

Lesbians are not really normal, hahas.. I could agree on this point.. Me and my gf always get stares when we walk along the road.. Ppl tend to look at her den at me wondering if we are gay or les.. some ppl are smart to spot us out.. some juz took her as a guy.. most bung like to be called guy.. but i'm not so into differentiating them la.. I just live my life and they live theirs NOMB..

hahas anw lesbian couple or gay couple.. they're still couple.. why break them up just becos they disobey nature's cycle.. Though i might be attracted to girls, but i tend to look at hunk too.. hahas.. I dun think any guy would understand me like my gf does.. and i bet my gf could be a better partner than the guys i've dated or wanna date..

anw i would like to thank all my friends who had be so tolerant with me.. ( i know i keep changing stead last time..) and for accepting who i am now and for accepting Jayvern oso..

Take care ppl!
signing off
Jingxian