Overcome.your.fear.never.let.it.overcome.you.

the title is obvious..
tt's wad i wan to tell everyone today.

was busy with my new media projects taking photojournalism pictures. i'm so upset because i cant tou pia ppl.. many ppl look through me(interpret).. they know i wan to take their pictures, came up to scold me.. upset.. it's not like i purposely wan to take ur pictures lo.. IF PETER TOLD US WAD WE SHOULD AND SHOULD NOT DO IN PUBLIC DEN MAYBE WE WOULD BE SCOLDED SO MUCH right jiaqi???!

terrible.. this week's a pack week for us all.. INterpretation Oral, Arguementative Presentation and video production filming.. NOT enuf footage! can i juz die? maybe is all the heat in me.. (eat too much fried food le la..)

so qiao! jie call me today ask if wanna meet her and kor at suntec.. she tot i'll be at suntec to collect my handphone (for the 3rd time..)
i replied nokia dint call me ma.. go down for wad? lol in a nicer tone of cos..
she said oh ok.. den hang up..

it was 6 plus to 7 when the nokia person called to say my phone's done.. is this fate or wad? lol
we finally met in the end at esplanade.. jie show me the 2 teeth which was totally cool! most of the teeth i had at home was my baby teeth about 12 of them .. hahas.. all cleaned and place nicely in my jewellery box.. hahas i dunno why but it's still jewellery box..

so long dint joke and laugh around with the two of them le.. missed you guys!!
i'm so dying to go chalet lo.. on a holiday most imptly.. so stressed up with I DUNNO wad..
haas...
Happy Birthday to Gavin whose birthday was on 29th July was so tired after ur birthday party tt i went home to sleep..
Happy Birthday to Mei Geok who was late on her birthday and almost dint turned up for her party because of our scheming plan..
Happy Birhtday to Wenxian my sister... we ate delicious cheese cake from galicier for he party.. it's soo much fun but.. i'm soooo broke now...

Happy that everyone's happy...

Photographs

Here i am juz back from New Media class.. TIME:4.44pm
now i realised i really HATE answering for things that i've not done wrong..

why cant u people just sit there act as i'm invisible while i take shots for my project?? arghhh... photojournalism is damn hard to take.. while documentary is no where better..

TIME: 230pm
Venue: Toa payoh

as i take pictures of a man picking up cardboards from the back lane of a shopping mall.. a sercuity guard was watching.. i tot he was just look at the guy picking up cardboard so i dun care much.. continue my snapping.. after tt i walked into the shopping centre.. i turned back and he's there.. i walk into mac he stood there... i walk out he walk with me.. wth.. uncle use ur brain la.. it's not like i'm a reporter or wad lo.. i'm just someone with a camera.. are u going to accuse me of shop-picture lifting???!!!!

next i walked to the mama shop in front of the library.. u noe... where there's usually alot of uncle playing chess....
i take and take and take until the old man look up at me.. the rest of the crowd say.."orhhhhorrr" den i turn and walk away.. .. wth.. he called out to me lo...

i bo pian had to turned back and ans him.. haiya who noes later he get someone to snatch my camera away..
anw he asked which society i'm working for.. i say for sch de.. he asked which sch.. i say peicai.. wahahas.. i tot it sounded more neighbourhood.. he say.. orhhh.. ok.. he tot i was from wad society.. a guy beside him say he's from the oppoistion party.. omg.. how come ganna into this kind of prob..

after that went home..at the interchange buzz.. i tot it might be a nice documentary.. the woman in the shop dun like me to take her pic..but i say only take the people buying things from her.. i say is for sch only.. she say ok..
when finally i got my angle.. she shout to me wor.. say dun take le dun take le.. (wth! woman! u so er xin lo think i see u wanna puke le still scream so loud like i rape u lidat..) the student who buy stuff from her oso ganna shocked.. she continued to ask me what organisation i'm from wad i'm doing.. (i just told u lo freak...) i was so fucked up.. didnt answer her i just continue to take my pic.. heard her saying something the bao guan copy right.. pls la.. i have more connection with the ppl who wrote the stuff.. u only noe ppl who do the distributing.. (HAHA)

but not all the ppl i took pic for are that bad la.. some like a little malay girl's mother is very nice.. her daughter is sleeping beside her.. den i asked her for permission to take her daughter's pic.. she immediately say ok.. so nice hor.. not like SOME PPL!! haas..

now i had to go out to repair my hp.. wth.. spoilt again.. for the 5th time in this month i'm going down to that shop.. wondering will i flare at the nokia ppl later.. gtg..

*ps.. xinni, jiashan thanks for reading my blog* cheers!

Neopet!!!

Recently i'm hooked to Neopets.. hahas can see that JV darlin's whole family oso playing neopets... so sweet... school's alright except tt editing and camera test is such a complete waste of time.. he juz wan us to do things his way.. if we do so, we'll get full marks. is this wad we're suppose to learn? so tt i'll come out to be an ex-singing champion of the late 80's? wad ever happed to the learing structure of asking questions of "how" "why" "what" and "what if"? maybe danny shld lecture him someday...

easily pissed off week..

mom confronted me today..
why ur friend cooliin always wear until like cap?
who's colin?
the one always wear cap living there de *pointing towards MRT station* hahas her name is CARINE ..
tell her be more girlish la.. so young already turn crook..
i got tell her to grow hair ma.. *eum chio* wad ppl wan to do with life is her prob ma... none of my business
ya la but u always hang out w her.. wad will ppl think of u two? next time go out ask a group of ppl go out together den she wun feel the need to protect someone or act as one..
*eum chio* (laughs secretly) orhh...

hahas i felt abit guilty for siding my mom.. but she has her point oso la.. wad for be a bung shave ur head juz to act as one? physical appearance only tell the world to shut off from u becos u're a homo.. muz u tell the world u are one? wad benefits do u have?... there're alot of such ppl out there.. pretending to be someone they aren't.. i'm oso one of them.. of cos.. they are juz following the flow so tt ppl would accept them or the way they tot ppl would accept them..

i can understand how bungs feel.. to be outcast.. to be suspect by others.. leading a life in illusion.. there were lots of times when i got told off but aunties in toilet who mistook me as a guy.. i dun like boys toilet cos it stinks! so bungs couldn't go toilet in public areas.. to get chased off by zouk bouncers as they dun welcome lesbians bungs.. even if they offered to pay a guy's entrance fee..

sometimes i wish life would be better for them but wake up! welcome to the real world!

Mission Impossible

Yaya...

tom cruise is very shuai.. and i've seen him 2wice on the big screen..

my mission impossible... mom's getting suspicious abt us le.. tt day my dad caught me talking to my dear dear using webcam.. erm pls la.. he only saw the camera on my lap and he demand an answer from me.. like i'll let other ppl see my face.. i bet they sure cannot take it de..anw i dint answer him la.. den he walk away feeling very angry

and he probably told my mom..

who caught me gg sentosa w my beloved darling.. at the MRT station.. heng we dint hold hands lo... hahas.. she's now highly aware tt i'm hanging out with "bu zhen jin" ppl.. (like my husband).. ppl ppl.. tell me what's wrong with parents these days?? if my hubby is not decent will i even last 1 year w her? let alone 3 months la..

who ask me last time ganna bash up by some wild les.. now cant even accept my outside friend.. nvm i've told some white lies.. my husband is my classmate... hahas my lies are soo hallow tt i think she's mixed up oso.. heyy.. my dear was once my sch mate k.. we're both from yzps..

haizzz headache ar... i was planning of telling them the truth on our 10 yrs anniversary.. hahas.. will invite u all de la.. to see their shocked face!! hahas..

sour lemon..

should gay marriage be legalised?

nowadays on fridae keep having all this news on gay marriage legalising.. gay demostration for legal rights.. haiz.. so ma fan.. it's none of their business.. i agreed with da sao tt this might create chaos in the society.. how would the adopted child feel if his parents are gays? i couldnt imagine myself doing such a thing.. but i admire some guys who wan to have a family with their boyfriends and undergo sex change.. so sweet lo.. there's this famous dnacer from China who made a name for himself as a guy.. but he went MIA for a while and came back into the dancing world as a married woman of three kids.. she is married to a European guy and she is still as high status as she was when she's a guy.. i think he's very remarkable to be able to sacrific his identity and reputation for his family..
(sorry for the inapporiate grammar here.. dunno whether to use He or She)
I read this in zao bao zhou kan sunday edition a few month ago.. under interview of Jin Xing.

this is wad i found online
Jin Xing born in 1969 was the son of an army officer and a translator; as a child, he excelled at dance and became the youngest person ever to be enlisted in the People's Liberation Army Song and Dance Academy. He became the first Chinese dancer to be awarded an arts scholarship to study in the United States, and that proved to be both a professional and personal turning point. Aware that he often felt more like a woman than a man, Jin Xing underwent a sex change in 1995; a daring move in a conservative Chinese society. Professionally, Jin Xing continues to push the boundaries of modern dance in Europe and here in China.She went through all stages of military training while also learning Russian ballet, classical Chinese dancing and acrobatics but suffered for having the soul of a woman in a man’s body. In hierarchical and conservative China it took a lot of patience and renunciation to get her way.With the surgical and medical change of sex which she underwent over several months from 1994-95, she acquired a new sense of her existence. Jin Xing is now the only free-lance choreographer and director of an independent dance group in the whole of China. With commercial appearances of all kinds, including modelling and television appearances and commercials, she earns enough to live grandly with a house and car of her own. She has also turned to work in films and runs a hotel and small theatre.Not only has her lifestyle changed. She has also bid farewell to all main roles in the Chinese style, to revolutionary ballet and to lyrical figural sequences. “I used to be a dance-machine” she said once with a smile. Now she is still keen to dance but only such roles, parts and themes as really interest her, and increasingly in an enthusiastic exchange with Western choreographers and ensembles.

well.. a little knowledge of the world.. hees.. ren sheng duan duan ji shi nian.. might as well enjoy everything u do.. right? hees... *winks*
why must he be called JX oso???