i noe why le!!!

U wanna noe why i cant blog in colur the previous post?
even if u dun wan to noe i'll tell u.. the dumb old me was typing in the Html mode la!!!! hahas kkk sorry ar.. now got colour le happy le right?


Was reading the online xiao shuo (stories) call 《我的天使我的爱》My angel, my love.. It's the 1st lesbian online story wrote by 蓝海 (blue sea) a china lesbian writer, published in 2005.
I must say the story moved me deeply..
first time use chinese to write wor.. hahas.. (actually is cut and paste de la) hees..
http://book.sina.com.cn/nzt/lit/wodetianshi/3.shtml

认识小贤的时候，我9岁，她12岁。（Coincidentally it's also my 乳名！）　　
因为爸爸出国，妈妈带她住到了外婆家，我们成了邻居。我们的妈妈是从小一起长大的好朋友，所以她们来到的第一天。妈妈就很热情地邀请她们到我家里吃晚饭。

第一次见小贤，她穿着白色的连衣裙，扎了个马尾辫，两只大大的眼睛，亮晶晶的眸子好奇地四处张望着,她抿着嘴,挂着丝甜甜的微笑。
席间，妈妈介绍了哥哥和我，小贤饶有兴趣地看着，微笑的眼睛从哥哥身上转向我，“这是我们家的小宝贝，幼幼！”妈妈笑着拉过我说。我抬头看她一眼，随即低下头，有点好奇也有点拘谨。“真漂亮”！这不是摆在商店橱窗里的，而是可以牵手的洋娃娃。
　　吃饭的时候，小贤一直没有说话，她长得很像她的妈妈，白皙的皮肤，乌黑的眼眸，浓而细密的眉毛，小而尖挺的鼻子。当我悄悄看她的时候，她突然盯着我，我赶紧低下了头，我看到她笑了，因为，我脸红了。7岁的时候，我只是知道自己脸红，却不知道这样的相遇注定了我的寂寞。
　　小贤成了我和哥哥的好朋友，她和哥哥同岁，起初我叫她“小贤”，她都追着做出要打我的样子，叫的多了，她也就不在意了。小贤的加入，我再也不能跟着哥哥整天爬墙、上树，虽然我挺想和哥哥去玩的，但总禁不住小贤的哀求，被拉着去她家看书。
　　小贤家有很多书，于是我们常常躺在地板上看书，看到精彩的地方，小贤总会打断我，非拉着我和她一起看。她喜欢抱着我，让我偎依在她怀里，闻着她身上香香的味道，我觉得特别舒服，经常悄悄地看着她专注的神态，呆呆的，任她说着书中的情节。
　　日子就这样在我们三个开心而快乐的笑声中过去，无忧无虑间我10岁了。大人们的事情让我们充满了好奇。
　　有一天我们三个人在一起说到了长大结婚的事情，哥哥说以后要小贤娶做老婆，我不同意，我说小贤要做我老婆，哥哥说男的和女的才可以结婚，我说就不要，小贤就要做我的老婆。哥哥用手指在脸上划着：羞羞羞，你是女人。我急眼了，抓着哥哥厮打起来，小贤过来使劲也拉不开我们，急得大声地哭着跑回家，当她妈妈拉开我们的时候，我和哥哥都已经伤痕累累了，我的眼睛成了熊猫眼，哥哥的脸上也都是我的抓痕，我们气呼呼地瞪着，攥紧的拳头似乎随时再战。
　　这个时候爸爸妈妈回来了，问清楚原因，三个大人哈哈大笑。我突然哇哇地哭起来了，眼泪刷刷流出来了。我以为爸爸妈妈会帮我的，而他们却在笑，我委屈极了。看到我哭了，爸爸赶紧一边拍拍我的背一边安慰我说：好幼幼，不哭了啊，爸爸问问小贤，看她愿意不愿意给你做老婆，好不好？我带着满脸的泪痕，使劲点点头。爸爸对小贤说：小贤，你告诉叔叔，你长大愿意嫁给幼幼呢还是小雷啊？我紧张地看着小贤，她一张秀气的脸似梨花带雨，看看爸爸，小声地说：幼幼。大人们都笑了，爸爸憋着笑，摇摇头对哥哥说：小雷，以后不要再欺负妹妹了。我高高地昂着头，像个胜利者似的拉起小贤得意地从沮丧的哥哥面前走过。那一年，我10岁，小贤13岁。在大人们的眼里，我们是稚气的孩子玩着成人的游戏，可他们不曾想到这是我坚守一生的诺言。


幼幼is a very bold girl true to her words.. She love 小贤alot.. but wad happened next was heartbrokening scene..(those anti lesbians de pls go to next blog ar..)


从那以后，哥哥就不大愿意和我们一起玩了，而我和小贤倒是越来越好了，我也长大了许多，总感觉自己已经不再是个小孩子了。
　　那个时候，我觉得日子是那么的快乐，天总是那么的蓝，云也是那么的白，心情永远是那么的舒畅。因为每天都可以看见小贤，我们在一起看书学习做游戏。整天像两只美丽的花蝴蝶在学校和家里飞舞。

那个时候，我们也偶尔说着自己的理想，小贤说要当个外交官，可以周游列国，我总是认真地问她，会带上我吗？她总是很肯定地点点头，于是我就快活地在她面前翻跟头。
　　这样快乐的日子终于在我12岁的时候结束了。小贤的爸爸回来了，要把她妈妈和她接到国外。当小贤跑到我家告诉我她要去外国的时候，她兴奋的满脸通红，两眼充溢着无限的向往。我听着听着，泪水不知不觉地流了出来。小贤赶紧抱着我说：幼幼，我会回来看你的，我发誓！
　　小贤即将离去的一个月是我最痛苦的日子，我想和小贤度过每一天每一刻，可见了她我又特别难受，和她去路边的那棵法国梧桐下坐着，那棵树上有我们刻下的名字。每天我们都去那坐一坐，什么话也不说，拉着手，偶尔我会转头看看身边的小贤，她已经变成个小美女了，已经发育的身材，两个眼睛水汪汪的，脸上是青春与秀美的融合。看着她拉着她的手，我感觉自己好幸福，真的希望就一直这样，最好永远都这样。看着我们如此的依依不舍，父母们都叹息。可他们却永远不知道藏在我幼小心中的那个小秘密。
　　我12岁的生日到了，当生日蜡烛燃亮的时候，我看看身边的小贤，冲她笑笑，第一次感到笑也会苦涩,我闭上眼睛开始许愿，许下一个永远不会实现的心愿，烛光中一丝咸水流进了我嘴里。两家大人为他们眼中的我和小贤的友谊而欣慰感慨。
　　吃完蛋糕，小贤拉我进了房间，然后让我闭眼睛，我感觉她把什么东西套在了我脖子上，睁开眼一看,是块碧绿的玉坠。我握在手心，那丝隐隐约约的凉意仿佛浸入了心底。
　　望着眼前高我半头的女孩，我突然觉得自己一下子长大了，我感到了痛苦，一种难以名状的痛苦。
　　我们并排坐在床边，小贤低声呢喃，像是在诉说什么，可我什么也不想听，我做了个自己也想不到的举动，我抱过她，开始亲吻她的双唇，而她也闭上了眼睛回应着我。那个时候，我感觉吻到了最柔软的甜蜜，浸入心腑的甜蜜，我只想让时光停止，就让我们这样吻着。泪水流满了我的脸庞，慢慢的我放开了她，她哀伤地看着我，抬手想拭去我的泪，我躲开了她的手，关了灯，跑到窗前，回身定定地看着她说：小贤，记住一定要回来找我，我等着你！那一年，我12岁，小贤15岁，似懂非懂年岁里我伸出双手去渴望那属于大人们的感情。

i think they so young already got to know somethings that even adult nowadays don't know how to do well.. they kept their promises and their love is pure and clean.. they love each other but yet they cant be together..

u can continue the story from here..
http://book.sina.com.cn/nzt/lit/wodetianshi/6.shtml

To all my homo couple friends out there,

not all ppl will accept the love tt u have now.. even though we try our best to show them our true emotion and feelings.. it's natural tt the person who will get hurt the most is our parents.. the love for ur parents or the love of ur life.. no matter wad one party will be hurt..
love will see us through everything? the decision will be made one day...

Love
Jing

There is seriously something wrong with the blogger

I cant change the colour and the font!!!! is it something wrong w my blogger?sob i juz we juz have to stick with black.. i thought it's the system's prob tt's y didnt blog for awhile.. anyone noe wad happen???
The BBQ plus birthday bash for Jiaqi winnie and wei zhen was a big success!! great job Huey tyng and Jemin! u all mastermind of evils ar!!!! hahas made them do so many stupid dares.. hahas but it's fun la..


Jiaqi's jing dian dare was draw her chinese name with her butt! hahas nice butt~~ oopss i mean u really can draw w ur butt!!!

Winnie's jing dian dare was to call 10 person and hung up on them when they said hello.. haas it's like so diao la.. i'll end up feeling stupid if i'm her victim.. it's kinda a prank la cos tt time she pulled my leg while i was half asleep.. well, we're fair now k.. hahas

Wei zhen jing dian dare was to ask strangers for no. Chosen by Caron and Qiao Juan.. hahas so funny.. I really cannot imagine someone like me go ask ppl for no and take photo with them.. i'm sure they'll juz run away la.. cos i'm monsterious looking.. hahas
Brought Jayvern along.. hahas she was the charcoal man.. dear de chicken wing is damn nice.. got put in effort to BBQ leh.. den we bought some alcohol.. dear dear was worried tt i'll get drunk when i gulp the beer down.. haaas i really did la.. awhile.. dizzy spell.. hahas i get tt all the time when i drink them within 10 min.. tt's why we went to the beach.. i gotten so mabo tt i dunno wad i was thinking actually is alot of things in ur head u feel like u're talking to urself more than talking to other ppl but u're saying it aloud.. u cant really ans ppl well la considering u dun even noe wad u're feeling.. haas but i'm still concious la.. dear was angry w me for getting dizzy outside.. den we sat down talk awhile.. n i got back to normal.. after 30 min.. not bad ar.. 30 min of high.. den no more le.. haas

i noe myself la.. not the first time i drink le.. i wun let myself get hurt de..the most i talk very sluggishly and loudly lo

after tt we went along to play game with the rest..so happy to see most of my class de ppl joining the fun.. seems like we've bonded alot since the last yr..

we're one of the ones.. Clues for me n Jayvern are siamese twins, energetic, together yet seperated and the best of all JJ lian..haas so gan dong..

ya and winnie couldnt get it right the 1st time.. hahas i so bad cos i say her dumb den she come attack me wor.. i siam.. dear scare i get hurt come stop us from playing hahas.. dear ar.. cannot so protective of me le k.. i'm old enuf.. hees..

well i did apologized to winnie after tt la.. cos hees afterall we're still friends.. cannot say play play le den suan.. later ppl take it seriously or really get hurt den tt's the end of a friendship ma.. ya.. need to depend each other when we're in China.. Duo duo guan zhao!!

After the bbQ i went to dear's hse to stay.. she pull out alot of blanket and spread out like a tatami.. so comfy.. slept at 430 to next morning.. yawn.. woke up slack around awhile it's dear dear's turn!!

her cousin's gathering.. and they wan to meet me.. so paiseh!! went to ps walk a few round and ate LJS for lunch.. haas they're really very friendly ppl..but they like to tease dear and her kor kor.. say dear's a boy and Gavin is a scare crow.. i like scare crow though cos of the Enid Blyton story.. THe UglY OLD Scare Crow.. nice nice.. hahas

well the fun, laughter and tears ends with aracade game sponsored by Gavin! HAHAHA i finally won 1st!!! for the racing track!! i always lose to them de lo!!! so happy!!! hahas slow and steady wins the race!!!

the King of Fighters oso very fun.. we play against gavin.. whaha we play cheat! i control the joy stick den dear control the buttons! we anyhow turn and pressed and hit and jolt the machine.. one of the benefits is u get to power up easily and blast at a fast rate.. the disadvantage is the character will do stupid stuff like combing hair showing u a thumbers up when the opponent fires a mega punch at u.. dumb!!

i'll upload the picture when i get from Qiao Juan..
chaos for now..

Housework

My holiday now is juz filled with Exercise(slimming down), Housework, Bleach and Jayvern..

Dear and i came up with a exercise plan to cut down weight as well as shaping the body(come on everyone say shake it~! yeah~! shake it~!)
hahas cos mom say i put on weight le.. THat's the cue. I dunno why i take her comments really seriously.

been helping mom with her teacher's teaching guide. she's very wei da.. do all the guide for all 8 branches of childcare center. hahas actually only the chinese teacher's part. so i get to help her to type and edit and send emails. tt's my holiday work. Somehow she pays for it.

Been doing housework to please her. Her praise is like my treasure. It keeps me wanting to do more for her. Anyway she let me go to the bbQ and (erm stay over nite la.. haas at dear's hse)

Bleach is the next best anime after you you bai shu.. it's showing on Cha 56 every weekday 630 pm. replay at 930am every morning... I'm chasing the Jap version which Gavin burned for me( so very nice of you Gavin!!) and watching the chinese version on tv. The next morning wake up to watch the replay again. I think i'm mad. I really think so.
(watching it later after this)

Jayv baby being very cuddly these few days hahas dunno why leh.. still got the lovey dovey feeling with her, juz like 1st month.. actually better ba.. she's having her exam break now.. and dear got sick.. got cough leh.. So worried for her.. can't help but think abt the outcome of her sept result.. *dear JIAYOU!!!*

Fri's gg to bbQ at Pasir Ris! Bring all ur games or ice breaker and let's play~! It'll be fun~!! HAHAS

Steve Irwin the Croc Hunter

  

Consider all the times i've been watching his animal show, i've always thought he's a fake(u noe there's a lot of documentary show tt are fake, the host juz stood there and talk). But recently i saw him on discovery where he distract the crocodile mother long enuf for the other doctors to collect the newly laid eggs.. he reallly risked his life for all the little croc's life.. He said he really hate those merchandises that sell croc skin. He felt tt things as beautiful as the croc shld not be wore or be a part of a hand bag.. THey shld be living in a habitat of their own be it in reserve or in zoo. They shld be protected.

From then on my perspect of him change. I really pei fu his bravery and his fight for the wild animals. He took so much effort to understand the behaviour of the dangerous animal tt not many would do. Deepest Sympathy to he and his family and thousand over Croc Hunter's Fan.

From wad i've guessed my msn has got 18 over ppl putting up the (tu) turtle emoticon to remember him.. some say the turtle represent the turtle he had, some guessed it's the only reptile in the emoticon available.
hahas..

I've remembered him saying once when facing a crocodile that almost got him. He say he wouldn't let the croc kill him because many criticis out there saying " we know the croc would get him one day" he wouldn't let it happen because his 40 over years of hard work will be down the drain..

who knew it would be a stingray that got him? It even took him by surprised! the producer said everything happened so fast that he's sure Steve wun feel a thing..

He's a great man.. Rest In Peace Mr Irwin.

No drinking on Mrt Platform

The following content is not for the soft hearted if u are 17 or younger pls proceed to another blog and skip this insanity blog


He spoilt my day.. seriously.. he's such a mother f****** !! juz becos i drink a sip from my 100 plus BOttle. He walked out from the MRt in his usual foul vegetable shirt, saw me drinking, shouted at me: NO DRINKING IN THE MRT PLATFORM! wth! d**** u!!

What's the point of having a mini snack bar in the MRT station?
to provide commuters with refreshments.. thank you very much we really appreciate it.. what is the fucking point of it being there when we cant even drink in the mrt station?
okla if u say no drinking of those easily toppled over drinks like big gulp or kopio plastic bag... i accept.. but i'm drinking from a bottled drink la.. not like i'm gg to spill over.. but i did think of spitting the water in my mouth into his face!!! i never get so humiliated by such a service personel before! if u wan juz say to me la.. muz u shout??? everyone was practically looking at me lo.. hellooo i noe u're in charge here but pls show ur fucking respect for ppl la.. now i noe why u're deemed to do this job.. because u cant get any further than sitting around drinking ur plain water in a mrt that goes from Punkgo to Hardship front.
PMS peroid- per mental sydrome..
Trash is a terrific show! So proud of them as li xie did it again!! * three cheers for DRAMAbox!! there's 2 more show 2nd Sept and 3rd sept !

* if u hate someone juz go step their shoe* do not hestitate*